Friday November 02, 2007
Alice, do you mind if I call you by your first name? I'm afraid of authority figures so I feel more comfortable calling you by your first name. I am crying right now...in the public library...I have FINALLY found someone who understands... someone in whom I hope I can trust. I am reading "The Body Never Lies" and you have validated my feelings of not wanting to forgive my parents. I understand intellectually that they were probably abused as children and subconsciously passed that onto me but emotionally, I never want to forgive them. EVER. I hate them. They stole my anger and I want to get it back. I've been numb for 60 years...diagnosed with PTSD, depression, disossciation. Now I'm going to tell on them. I'm writing my memoir. I'll be back.
AM: You write: They stole my anger and I want to get it back. You CAN get it back and it will help you to heal. It will give you the courage to OWN your true feelings and never allow anybody to steal them. You need them more than anything else.