The first step to the truth
Friday May 04, 2007
Dear Alice Miller,
I write to you to say thank you for your work.
It is a struggle, a life of an abused child. Mine is, so was and still is that of my parents. They killed me with their desperate need for love and understanding, and now I find myself unable to really leave them.
My body crucified on the cross of their wishes.
Poetry, dance and mountains are keeping me alive. Your book (Body demands truth - in slovene) made me lie on the floor for hours dead like, not being able to move. I felt the truth for the first time but I was still not able to stay there for long.
I search for a therapist now, but it is very hard. Most of them are just fake, sad vampires like me who try to save themselves somehow.
So, I have to tell you, the more I learn about therapies the more confused I get.
I wanted to share these few thoughts with you as you contributed to their birth.
Best wishes. N.
AM: Thank you for your moving letter. It shows that you ARE already living in truth; it is normal that you can't stay there all the time because it is extremely painful to be "on the cross of parental needs for love". I hope that one day you will be able to leave this cross and to take care of the small abused girl that is waiting for your attention, your compassion and your love for such a long time. I wish you the courage to do so.